You know there are times when life is really challenging and in the space of 24hrs everything changes. Well that just happened to me.
I found out yesterday that a friend who is very dear to me. A friend who was my rock when 'Little Miss H' was born and diagnosed with Down Syndrome. A friend whom I have slowly drifted apart from over the last few years.....Why does that happen? Why do we let life get in the way of friendship? Is now a friend who is very much in need. I have just found out that my friend is an alcoholic.
I have spent the morning at her mum's getting the full lowdown on the situation. It's bad. I called her, we haven't spoken for at least 6 mths. She didn't answer. I left a voicemail just letting her know that I know, that I'm there for her. Thank God she rang me back. We're meeting tomorrow and I hope I can help her work through this before it's too late. And yes, it really is that desperately bad.
I wanted to share that snippet of news and my heartfelt apologies if it has clouded your day, but you know I just needed to put it out there. To share it. I sense I have an incredibly difficult journey to undertake and though Mr. G knows the situation I feel he is worried about the impact it will all have on our life. The poor guy already deals with the stresses of my job, I am not very good at hiding my feelings so some days by the time I get home from work I am a mess. Unfortunately in my line of work distress and ultimately death are never far away, though it doesn't get any easier no matter how many times you experience it.
If my postings become more sporadic please bear with me, life will be just taking its toll. I have a feeling though that I may just turn into a late night blogger trying to squeeze it all in, if anyone knows where to get extra hours let me know!! If you've read this far thanks for being my cyberspace buddy and I promise not to post another depressing story. Ever. (Well maybe not ever but certainly not about this for a very long time!) Thank-you.